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| My Testimony I was raised in a loving family by wonderful Christian parents. I accepted Christ as my personal Lord and Savior at the age of 9 and was excited about becoming a Christian. At the age of 13, my father passed away unexpectedly, leaving my mother to raise 4 children on her own. At that point, my life seemed to change forever. I became bitter and filled with such anger, not just towards myself and my life, but also towards God. I could not understand how He could allow this to happen to my family. As I grew older, I continued to carry that resentment and anger in my heart, and it increased with age. I began to totally rebel against my family and God. I was constantly looking for the "thing" that would make me happy. I thought that I could run my life better than God could....because only I knew my wants and needs. I continued on my path of self destruction for many years, never achieving what I expected from myself, or what others knew I was capable of. For so many years, I had such an empty feeling inside and tried to fill that void with wordly things. Nothing I tried made any difference, and if anything, it made the situation worse. I began suffering from severe depression which made me withdraw even more and push away the few positive things still remaining in my life, my family and friends. After going through two failed marriages, I then placed myself in a relationship that was verbally, emotionally and physically abusive. By that time, I was convinced that I didn't deserve any better. Why should God love someone that had lived such a life of failure? I had totally lost all hope and given up on everything and everyone. On August 27 1998, everything changed in an instant. I was at the point of committing suicide. I sat on my sofa with all intentions of taking my own life because I knew that I could not live this way any longer. As I sat there shaking and sobbing, I began to think of all my failures and mistakes, and the effect my actions had on my family. I was so heartbroken that the only thing I could manage to get out of my mouth was "God, Please Help Me!!!". As I sat there, knowing my intentions, the phone began to ring. I felt such a tug on my heart to answer that call, and to this day, I thank God for that one last chance. It was a lifelong friend of mine that I had pushed away many years before. God had placed me on her heart at that very moment, and she was answering God's call. As we spoke, I began to realize that God had placed his hand on my life through the love of that friend. For the first time in years, I finally realized the one thing missing in my life was the person that I was trying so hard to run from. That person is Christ. That night I fell to my knees and prayed for God to forgive me and to move into my heart and take full control of my life. I finally realized that He is the ONLY one that truly knows what I need, and can supply those needs. When I allowed myself to re-focus and invite Christ back into my life, everything began to change. I remember vividly that night that I rededicated my life to Christ, and He continues to bless me beyond comparison daily. I now see the beauty in things that I never noticed before...like the sun rising over the treetops, the sounds of the birds as they sing, the peaceful sound of a stream, the innocence of children, and the treasures I have been given in family and friends. God has provided me with a loving Christian husband and two wonderful children. Through placing my faith in Christ, I have received a new sense of direction in my life. As long as I place Him in the center of my life, and do all things to glorify His name, He will supply all of my needs. He is an Awesome God! Do you know this Savior of mine? I would love to introduce Him to you. He has been waiting your entire life for you to invite Him into your heart. Place your life in the steady unchanging hands of Christ and be changed forever. |
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Sometimes God calms the raging storms in our lives; Sometimes He lets the storm rage and calms His child! May I Pray For You? |
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